2008-June

I am slowly, a bit at the time, learning about the details of this blog's logistic (of the user interface). E.g. I just saw the "new post" menu option at the top of this blog window. Such small details can keep me back. I am hopeless.

I ran into (Artur P)'s blog. Somehow it had a very positive influence on me, made me come back here too, and to take another look at my present situation. Perhaps, with a bit of discipline, I can still squeeze from myself a bit of consistent, constructive effort. My main problem is, or I should mbeliwve that it is psychological. Since Biblical time people understand the necessity of Sabbath or Sunday, and of the holidays, while for years I have none of them. However, iof I somehow fool myself into pretending that I have some, then perhaps I will get going a bit instead of having excuses. Chess players are especially good in making excuses. In this respect I am by far a world champion (otherwise I am another poor, club level chess player).

As a first step let me write some of my present projects and activities (besides assisting my father):

• I participate in a private Internet forum for my school classmates. There are fewer and fewer of us left. The forum has strictly sentimental value. But so what? Isn't it about being humans (for better or worse), and not just about achievements etc? There were really only 7 of us active (on and off). Now it's 9. Others are lurking or not involved (while formally all classmates are automatically among participants, if their email is known).
• I have started to write, in TeX :-), a consecutive article for Delta. This time about the magic squares. I have go back to it.
• I should truly concentrate on my dabanese language, especially, that I got Artur interested (at least for the moment).
• I should go back to writing about my "The art of agreement". In particular, I have written recently 4 installments in Polish for an electronic zine, and I should continue. Somehow that zine is not making the writing process attractive. I should still continue.
• A reincarnation of a poetic Polish portal is in making. Somehow participants are passive. The main force of the project, PŁ, set up a deadline around June 20 something. I should finish writing the statue of that portwal without worrying about inactivity of others. If that portal did happen I would feel real good, hopefully I would write there my more complete view of poetry (it goes back to the old views on poetry). I wish such a nice portal existed in the past, not just for poetry but also in other domains - the quality of my life (and of others, I believe) would be higher.

Well, enough, I better stop now. Sure, I have other projects too, infinitely many of them :-), be it public projects like education or private like physical exercise, better eating and sleeping habits, etc. Unrealistic. On the top of it another infinity of mathematical projects. Sounds crazy but I am too lazy too be crazy. I simply wish I had my peace of mind to learn some profound pieces of mathematics. unrealistic, and this time I feel sad. I would need good conditions to truly get into hard mathematical problems. I don't think that disciplpine alone is enough. I would need discipline anyway, even under favorable circumstances.

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Artur's blog is interesting. In particular, he has poetic photos of the Cracow's suburbs, Kazimierz & Pogórze.